Confessions thread

therapists are so expensive lol.

this should be a fun anxiety-filled week. ok so I'll look up therapists. if I can fucking afford it

eh, I just talked to my friend about it...

he didn't know I felt this way

MiloTime wrote:

eh, I just talked to my friend about it...

he didn't know I felt this way

Communication is one important step when you fell depressed. Probably something good will come out from telling your friend

Well my confessions are:

-I needed 10 minutes to figure out how to search new posts here
-And I have a tail fetish

I dont know why, but tails hypnotize me everytime I see one. When I'm playing with mi aunt's dog, I usually keep staring at his tail when I'm rubbing his belly. I think I like the way it moves and swings in the air or just the fluffyness( ) of it.

Kaiser wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

eh, I just talked to my friend about it...

he didn't know I felt this way

Communication is one important step when you fell depressed. Probably something good will come out from telling your friend

it's going to get around, and soon everyone I know will look at me differently. they'll see me as that guy who tried to kill himself multiple times and even failed at doing that.

Kaiser wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

eh, I just talked to my friend about it...

he didn't know I felt this way

Communication is one important step when you fell depressed. Probably something good will come out from telling your friend

Well my confessions are:

-I needed 10 minutes to figure out how to search new posts here
-And I have a tail fetish

I dont know why, but tails hypnotize me everytime I see one. When I'm playing with mi aunt's dog, I usually keep staring at his tail when I'm rubbing his belly. I think I like the way it moves and swings in the air or just the fluffyness( ) of it.

wait you mean like wagging tails turn you on?

edit: wrong thread lol.

and tails are nice I guess

Ryan, that is the OPPOSITE of being positive.

Taz wrote:

Ryan, that is the OPPOSITE of being positive.

you mean suicide? no... no, I suppose it isn't very positive.

MiloTime wrote:

therapists are so expensive lol.

this should be a fun anxiety-filled week. ok so I'll look up therapists. if I can fucking afford it

No this.

Taz wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

therapists are so expensive lol.

this should be a fun anxiety-filled week. ok so I'll look up therapists. if I can fucking afford it

No this.

it should be enough that I'm looking for a therapist.

pessimism is second nature to me. it's pretty much impossible for me to think any other way

Milo, just sayin', I got the name of someone close to me who committed suicide tattooed on my chest. Losing him was the most painful experience I've ever been through, and you really do not want to put those people who are close to you through the same thing. Trust me on that one.

melomethis wrote:

blackfuredfox wrote:

Im having a very peculiar thought right now. I want to kill myself but I don't know why. Its like Ive just grown bored with life and don't really care for it anymore. Like a weird sort of being content with things.

You need to sit down and talk with your friends and family about this stuff.

What would I tell them? It doesn't even make sense to me. Like I said, its like im just content with the idea of dying. I have my future set with the USAF, im moving in mid 2013 to California, and right now until I go to basic I have a great job doing things I like and working around 60 hours a week. I have money and friends and everything I hadn't had for years now. Its like there's not a challenge anymore.

Lucky people don't get to commit suicide.

So fuck you. >:U

I'm going to propose tomorrow. I wish I could say that I'm ecstatic about it but after seeing so many friends get engaged and then breaking up later and hating each other it makes me just want to go to that fancy ass restaurant tomorrow and eat, all the time not talking, all the time not doing anything because Athenai's my best friend. Hell, she's one of my only friends... I just wish it could stay that way. I don't want to lose her.

I also worry too much. I worry about Athenai, my mother slowly going insane, my friends in dire situations. Hell, I even worry about Milo a fair bit and he's someone I've never met and lives thousands of kilometres away. The only person I don't worry about is myself. I don't just not care about myself, I loathe myself. I despise every part of me; I'm absolute scum. That's why I try to help everyone, that's why I'm so outgoing, so friendly, so energetic, so optimistic: Almost everything I do will positively affect someone, or at least effect a positive situation; when I don't, when I do anything for myself and myself only I'm the worst person in existence. I deserve to die and the only reason that I don't is Athenai. I've begged her to stop caring about me because then I could stop. I would stop caring what others think of me, I'd stop pleasing everyone else, I'd just stop. I'd stop myself from being alive. Under this confident, friendly shell is nothing more than a selfish, cuntfaced, arrogant, manipulative, violent emotional wreck with a great ass. And it is not an ass worth living for.

Good luck, Greg.

I remember when I proposed to Kanon and he said yes. Butterflies, my nigga. Butterflies~

Ahkmill wrote:

Lucky people don't get to commit suicide.

So fuck you. >:U

well I... GET to... but I don't want to

@greg: why are you worried about me? am I... part of your engagement?!

Versailles' "Truth" video didn't really impress me that much.

Sometimes I get thrown into huge panic attacks because I'm a very paranoid person. Now is one of those times and I really don't want to sit through it. I just want it to stop.

I'm locked down because things hurt too much. It's funny because they really shouldn't hurt this much.

Brace wrote:

I'm locked down because things hurt too much. It's funny because they really shouldn't hurt this much.

Sorry for the slow reply, but what's happening?

Nothing. I'm graduating college with three degrees and trying to figure out whether I actually need four, five, or six instead. I'm contemplating moving to Maine to live with my boyfriend. I'm just kind of scared of the world. I have a lot of options but they all seem hollow because there's nothing to guarantee that people won't be shitty to me, whether intentionally or unintentionally, and due to all the debt I've taken on and other obligations I'm going to have to work, even if my coworkers do end up being torture to work with.

MiloTime wrote:

@greg: why are you worried about me? am I... part of your engagement?!

no, for such a neat guy it seems sometimes like you're secretly on the verge of going insane from shit at home.

idk why i'd worry about some random i met on the internet. :/

GregStriata wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

@greg: why are you worried about me? am I... part of your engagement?!

no, for such a neat guy it seems sometimes like you're secretly on the verge of going insane from shit at home.

idk why i'd worry about some random i met on the internet. :/

well, I'm just naturally neurotic. everything freaks me out lol.

Thlayli wrote:

Sometimes I get thrown into huge panic attacks because I'm a very paranoid person. Now is one of those times and I really don't want to sit through it. I just want it to stop.

I dealt with panic attacks for several years, and I found the best way to deal with them was through going outside and taking a walk. The panic attacks stopped around the first time I had my first psychotic episode at 16, and I haven't had them since, but I feel you.

It sucks the worst kinds of diccks.

when I was in my christian academy when I was young, I once had a panic attack, excused myself to go to the bathroom, and wrote... well anti-christian things on the mirrors in soap.