BAWW thread

lunar_helix wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

lunar_helix wrote:

Riv wrote:

blackfuredfox wrote:

Tried to kill myself tonight from weeks of stress building up from goodthings to bad things. Instead I passed out and the boot band around my neck came loose. Not sure if this is a good or bad thing.

My heart sank reading that. Losing you would be painful for all of us.

I second that, especially me. You're my bestest friend in the whole wide world. If you went and did something like that, that rip would be in my heart forever.

no offense, but if I remember correctly, you specifically said that you encourage people who want to commit suicide, to go ahead and do it, as "the world would be better off without them"

Because BFF is the only person I've met with a legitimate reason. He literally breaks his back for people who give him nothing in return... and sometimes that includes me. Everyone else who wants to kill themselves? Drama whores that would make a teenage Barbie girl tell them to shut the fuck up.

Also, thanks for ruining a golden moment, Milo :<

the only thing I have to look forward to is this place. do you know how pathetic that is? the place where I have maybe 2 friends at best?.... maybe... otherwise, I'm just an eyesore

the only difference between me and bff, is I'm too much of a fucking pussy to go through with it.

and um, sorry for ruining your moment :<

What I can't stand about most people (myself included) is why you wouldn't want to try to turn things around, get out of your comfort zone, for the better. I've started a bit, since meeting my girlfriend, and you wouldn't believe the kinds of things the world has to offer, if you only try to look.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

lunar_helix wrote:

What I can't stand about most people (myself included) is why you wouldn't want to try to turn things around, get out of your comfort zone, for the better. I've started a bit, since meeting my girlfriend, and you wouldn't believe the kinds of things the world has to offer, if you only try to look.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

I can't tell you how hard I'm trying to. there's not much out there for a 21 year old highschool drop out who can't even afford to get a G.E.D. ($80 per test.... is ridiculous for someone like me) my best hope is to keep on searching through craigslist, as I've already applied at every single store within a 2 mile radius from where I live.

MiloTime wrote:

lunar_helix wrote:

What I can't stand about most people (myself included) is why you wouldn't want to try to turn things around, get out of your comfort zone, for the better. I've started a bit, since meeting my girlfriend, and you wouldn't believe the kinds of things the world has to offer, if you only try to look.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

I can't tell you how hard I'm trying to. there's not much out there for a 21 year old highschool drop out who can't even afford to get a G.E.D. ($80 per test.... is ridiculous for someone like me) my best hope is to keep on searching through craigslist, as I've already applied at every single store within a 2 mile radius from where I live.

No one will help you pay for it? That sounds like the sort of thing your parents would be happy to help you with, as long as it'll get you started somewhere.

The arguing never helps. It makes things worse for me because I try to be a peacemaker for my friends, in the end it never lasts. Seriously the way it makes me feel hearing my friends argue, especially over something as pointless as me makes me want to stop going on.

lunar_helix wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

lunar_helix wrote:

What I can't stand about most people (myself included) is why you wouldn't want to try to turn things around, get out of your comfort zone, for the better. I've started a bit, since meeting my girlfriend, and you wouldn't believe the kinds of things the world has to offer, if you only try to look.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

I can't tell you how hard I'm trying to. there's not much out there for a 21 year old highschool drop out who can't even afford to get a G.E.D. ($80 per test.... is ridiculous for someone like me) my best hope is to keep on searching through craigslist, as I've already applied at every single store within a 2 mile radius from where I live.

No one will help you pay for it? That sounds like the sort of thing your parents would be happy to help you with, as long as it'll get you started somewhere.

ohoho parents. they're the reason I was homeless 3 different times it's only because I was too young to legally be kicked out, they had to take me back in lol (well the first 2 times)

MiloTime wrote:

ohoho parents. they're the reason I was homeless 3 different times it's only because I was too young to legally be kicked out, they had to take me back in lol (well the first 2 times)

Mine have chucked me out, too. Luckily I could still go to my dad's or something.

blackfuredfox wrote:

The arguing never helps. It makes things worse for me because I try to be a peacemaker for my friends, in the end it never lasts. Seriously the way it makes me feel hearing my friends argue, especially over something as pointless as me makes me want to stop going on.

Now that's no attitude to have. If I could afford it I'd get you the biggest, most bestest Christmas gift ever.

Oh, also, I went back to a friend's to get some of the stuff I'd left there from when I lived with her for a couple weeks. She had been robbed, which means my German helmet (forgot the name) and my N64, along with Super Mario 64 and Banjo-Kazooie, were gone. Oh, and Pokemon FireRed, which pissed me off greatly. Thank god the little shit didn't get my book about the Civil War; that thing's over 100 years old.

lunar_helix wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

ohoho parents. they're the reason I was homeless 3 different times it's only because I was too young to legally be kicked out, they had to take me back in lol (well the first 2 times)

Mine have chucked me out, too. Luckily I could still go to my dad's or something.

blackfuredfox wrote:

The arguing never helps. It makes things worse for me because I try to be a peacemaker for my friends, in the end it never lasts. Seriously the way it makes me feel hearing my friends argue, especially over something as pointless as me makes me want to stop going on.

Now that's no attitude to have. If I could afford it I'd get you the biggest, most bestest Christmas gift ever.

Thats the thing that does it though, arguing and trying to tell me im better than the way it is. Im pathetic. Im an obsolete relic. A prototype too different to be pushed into production, and too unique to be scrapped. Best thing to do is leave me to collect dust. Because what I was made to do I can't.

blackfuredfox wrote:

lunar_helix wrote:

MiloTime wrote:

ohoho parents. they're the reason I was homeless 3 different times it's only because I was too young to legally be kicked out, they had to take me back in lol (well the first 2 times)

Mine have chucked me out, too. Luckily I could still go to my dad's or something.

blackfuredfox wrote:

The arguing never helps. It makes things worse for me because I try to be a peacemaker for my friends, in the end it never lasts. Seriously the way it makes me feel hearing my friends argue, especially over something as pointless as me makes me want to stop going on.

Now that's no attitude to have. If I could afford it I'd get you the biggest, most bestest Christmas gift ever.

Thats the thing that does it though, arguing and trying to tell me im better than the way it is. Im pathetic. Im an obsolete relic. A prototype too different to be pushed into production, and too unique to be scrapped. Best thing to do is leave me to collect dust. Because what I was made to do I can't.

Let me tell you something, I don't make friends with pathetic people. Think me a bitch, but it's true. I don't consider any of my friends useless, and you're no different.

Well, my mom took the dog to the vet this morning... evidently, she has congestive heart failure and is probably getting put down today. As if that weren't enough, we're getting our diabetic cat put down after Christmas. Can't afford medication or surgery for either one of them.

blackfuredfox wrote:

Thats the thing that does it though, arguing and trying to tell me im better than the way it is. Im pathetic. Im an obsolete relic. A prototype too different to be pushed into production, and too unique to be scrapped. Best thing to do is leave me to collect dust. Because what I was made to do I can't.

let me make it fucking apparent to you since I guess you can't see this. you are worth more than I will EVER hope to amount to. your place on this earth is more valuable and important than mine is.

calling yourself pathetic is just calling me something lower than that, because if you're pathetic, than I can only hope to amount to that level some time in my life. I don't even deserve to be called pathetic, because my life is about as important as a pebble hidden underneath a pile of rocks that nobody will ever come across.

you're making waves with people. making a difference. I hide myself underneath a pile of rocks, just so I don't have to annoy the people who can already barely stand to look at me.

Sassie (my dog) has been scheduled to be euthanized on Saturday morning. And after the holidays, we get to put my cat down, too! /sarcasm

lunar_helix wrote:

Sassie (my dog) has been scheduled to be euthanized on Saturday morning. And after the holidays, we get to put my cat down, too! /sarcasm

oh man. and here I am still coming to terms with my last dog I lost :\

Putting down an animal...wish the would never die. However, it is part of life and death is never pretty. That's helped me with our past babies but I am still dreading the loss of my current one...rescued him at a shelter so we don't know his age. It is starting to show though.

I'm gonna lose my shit when Sheeva dies (kitty)

The worst part of my last rattie dying was not being informed until she was incinerated by the vet. I would have liked to have her ashes... I love my rats more than I do myself.

Thlayli wrote:

The worst part of my last rattie dying was not being informed until she was incinerated by the vet. I would have liked to have her ashes... I love my rats more than I do myself.

:C
that1 goes for my last reply to
apparently it doesn't mean that
but it looks like he's crying
at first

Why would they not tell you about euthanizing your pet? ;~; That's pretty awful...

I remember the day my cat was euthanized... She had been there all ten years of my life, and belonged to my mother for over a decade before that. I cried more on that day than I ever have in my life. I'm even tearing up a little bit right now.

Riv wrote:

I remember the day my cat was euthanized... She had been there all ten years of my life, and belonged to my mother for over a decade before that. I cried more on that day than I ever have in my life. I'm even tearing up a little bit right now.

We had to put my mom's cat to sleep last year. It was hard on everyone, since we had her for so long, and it was right after my grandma on my mom's side died. My mom was unapproachable for at least a few weeks. Losing pets like that ain't easy at all. :/

I remember a few weeks before our yorkie died, she just got real sick and threw up bloos, big puddles of it too. I can't tell you anymore without breaking down, except that the smell, I its still fresh in my nose 6 years later.

lol, to think I had a crush on this one guy... only when I pour my heart out, do I realize what an egotistical douche he is.

edit: given the timing, I should mention, it's nobody from the internet

Poured you heart out? It was awkward as fuck especially when I have been stating fuck relations for the longest time. You quit being the douchebag and making people feel awkward.


I'm tired of your crap. Stop making passive aggression comments towards everyone. Learn to smile for once you sad excuse for a person.

And i'll take the egotistical douche comment. I get that when I see a person who is always out to deviant themselves and put others down.

Edit: You were banned from the Skype group chat for a reason. Don't make me ban you from tinychat. I know it is Shape's but I am sure she would see the reasoning with a little bit of reasoning with.

HAXX wrote:

Poured you heart out? It was awkward as fuck especially when I have been stating fuck relations for the longest time. You quit being the douchebag and making people feel awkward.


I'm tired of your crap. Stop making passive aggression comments towards everyone. Learn to smile for once you sad excuse for a person.

And i'll take the egotistical douche comment. I get that when I see a person who is always out to deviant themselves and put others down.

not. you.

I haven't liked you for over 2 months. my last message was simply to admit that I felt anything for you in the first place. and that's exactly why I stopped trying to talk to you.

the person I'm talking about is a good friend I had my first experience with. left me a bit in the dust after that. which is bad, considering he acknowledged me like not many others do